PERLUKAH AKU IRI HATI??

assalamualaikum, ,

sekali lg nak kemaskn blog ni yg mmg sgt2 b'sawang. .labah-labah smpi dah beranak generasi ke-10 dah. . .ok, enough merepek. .

td ana bru lpas on9 fb, ,shbt2 kat oversea sume tgh holiday skarang ni. .tyme tengok pic d'org, ,rase jeles sgt. . i'm admit that i'm juz a normal person whom will easily get jealous with others fortune. .but, hey at least takde r smpi nak rosakkan hidup diorang. .juz peraasaan tu terbit dlm hati..

by the way, ,ana kene back to myself la kan. .sape suruh tak belajar btol2 back then. .yup, ana ni jenis yg struggle last minute. .maybe da biase sbb my UPSR n PMR i did the same thing, ,study last minute. .alhamdulillah score . .but SPM really different from other examination. .u don't understand the previous you cannot achieve the new one instead. .tapi, ana terlambat. .ye lah nasi dah jadi bubur. .i must face the music. .n skarang ni tgh struggle di bumi matrik. .hurmm, ,kadang2 terbuat jgak perkara sedemikian (study last minute). .tp kite belajar dr pengalaman kan? ?tgh istiqamah dlm menuntut ilmu (at least i'm trying). .but ape la daya yg ade pade hambe yg lemah mcm ana ni kan. .juz mampu pohon kat Allah supaya di kurniakan sedikit kekuatan. .alwayz remember in all my prayer. .

plus, ni maybe mehnah dr Allah untok ana, ,why?? maybe lack of mengadu kat Allah. .yes i know as a slave we must act to be one. .tp, sape je yg nak mengaku die tu hamba. .kekadang perilaku kite tak menunjukkan kite ni seorang hamba. .ana adalah salah seorang drpd perlaku tersebut, ,well maybe in hardship i do remember Allah, ,but i seldom remember Him when i' m happy. .let this be a lesson to me. .tyme belajar berape peratus je ana ingt nak niat belajar kerane Allah, ,yg laen kebanyakan nye sbb nak kalahkan si fulanah ni n si fulanah tu. .no wonder, Allah didn't bless me. .at least ana kene niat nak belajar kerane Allah n nak bangunkan umat dan negara islam. .dlm mase yg same nak balas jase n pengobanan ibu ayah. .:)

last but not least, mungkin this is my fate. .dah tertulis kat luh mahfuz yg ana akan dpt result sedemikian. .maybe Allah dah planned better for me in my future, , instead of crying and felt defeated, ,i must gain my strength and continue the fight. .in shaa Allah, ,Allah nmpk usaha ana. .Allah adalah ape yg kite sangke. .am i right??be urself and try to change the bad habit. .mungkin Allah tak bg kite study kat luar negare for certain2 reason. .and maybe atas kesabaran kite menghadapi dugaan Allah akan sediakan ganjaran yg lebih besar ni'matnye dr study luar negara. .:)

p/s:be strong. .  .